Under the duvet/Help

So today has productively been spent snuggly under my duvet avec The L Word - season 3.
Uh huh Shane is just delicious


I want to talk today about Ourchart, the lesbian networking site.
To give a brief overview of my sitaution:
When I was 21 and very straight I met a girl who was fully out, through some gay boy friends, stuff happened between us and the love thang crept in there a little too. It finished partly due to my inability to comprehend what was happening and partly due to me being a twat.
Things then took a turn for the weird and we stopped being friends I don't see so much of my gay boy friends (we've all grown up and apart a bit over the years) so now I am in a bit of a quandry becuase I want to explore this exciting new part of me but just don't know any other lesbians and I'm just too much of a pussy to go to a girlie bar by myself.
Now don't get me wrong my best friends have all offered to go with me - but for some reason that just doesn't feel right - should I include them on this and why do I feel strange about doing so.
THey have been tottally supportive of my decision and are so far the only people I have told.

Anyway before you nod off - Ourchart.
So I have registered and opened an account - for those of you who don't know about it it's a lesbian facebook, you can invite people to be your friends, message each other put a photo up and ultimately build a chart of "friends" for everyone to look at be astonished that you are just so damn popular.
When I reistered I thought well now here's a good place to just be me and talk to new people have some chat full stop, however I have now realised that people are so held back and I suppose may feel odd talking to people they don't know.

So I guess what I'm saying is am I onto a losing battle - should I just take my sorry ass to a bar and hope I don't look like a plum the whole evening or should I take my firends with me and hope that I don't make a massive twat out of myself?

Do I continue on Ourchart and hope that evenutally people start to loosen up and just talk?
In fact that's kind of what I'm hoping will happen here too?!


Song for the day:
Temptation By New Order (love it just love it)
Oh you've got green eyes......

Fact for the day:
The average amount of time spent kissing for a person in a lifetime is 20,160 minutes.