I feel like i'm going mental...i've lost something so ingrained in me that i feel as though i've lost a limb, more than a limb, like i've lost my soul.
I have no direction, i'm going in all directions.
I have a 1000 thoughts a second, anger, saddness, regret, hope, bitterness, love, hate, pain, destruction so many more, my head doesn't seem to want to rest, I can't sleep for the voices in my head creating scenarios that will never be played out in real life, that bring tears to my eyes and a lump in my throat, stir a feeling of sickness in my stomach. I can't swallow food, I feel guilty for laughing, I have no desire to do anything but sleep and I can't.
I've lost my best friend